出家
3月突入！ ゆばばでございます
すこーしずつ 暖かくなりはじめてますねぇ
黄砂も 花粉も もうもうとしてますが やっぱり あったかいのは嬉しいです
みなさま 神様を信じていらっしゃる？
あたいは もっぱら困った時のみってヤツです
が、7アクトでお仕事させていただく前までは教会に何年か通ってたこともありました
いえいえ Christian ではありません まだ。
しかしシフトで日曜日勤務になってからは しばらく足が遠のいてはおります
今日はキリスト教の話ではありゃしまへん
すんまへん 英語学習でもありまへん
ついにその日が来てしまったのです
4日前のことでした うちのボンとそれについて話したのは。
ボンは 大学ラグビーしてるけど はっきし言って活躍してるとは言えなかった
本人も溜息まじりにこのままなのかなぁとつぶやくこともままあった
つうのは ボンのチームはちと名が知れたとこで全国から選手が集まってたから。
今は先輩の卒業もあって部活は春休み中
ボンは午前中にバイトしてるが ほかは1日中だらだらして
テレビゲームしたり テレビ見たりで…
勿論 それはいいのだが どうも自分はそれを見るのがイヤで…
もしできるんなら あたいが見えないところでやってほしいな と思ったりしてた…
ああ あたい どんな息子がほしいんだろ
1日中勉強してる子？ まさかっ
空いてる時間にはガンガン家事する子？ あり得ないしぃ
そーゆー子があたいの理想ではない
けど 体調崩してお休みをいただいた日、そんなボンを見ててしまいにゃ
知らんうちに自分でも機嫌が悪くなってた (=｀(∞)´=)
自分の時間を楽しんでるのに ちっとも悪いこたぁ無いのに・・・
自分でもこのイライラは不当だと感じてたから 何も言わなかったが
顔に出てるのが隠せなかった (=｀(∞)´=)
うちのボンはあたいの顔色をすぐ読む KYじゃない あたいには完璧なボンだ
ボンはあたいが何をイラついてるか聞きまくった
喋るつもりはなかったが 結局 思ってることを話し、
なんと やはり もう 別々に住む時期じゃないのかと
お互い平和のうちに結論に達した！
息子がこの世に生まれてほぼ20年 ひとつ屋根の下に暮らしてきた
就職したら一人暮らしを始めるんだと楽しみにしていたボン
それまでは なんとか一緒にいたいと 思ってた
だって 溺愛ボンだし ┐(´-｀)┌
けど もうその時なんだ (ﾉ_･｡)
うちは典型的な日本の狭い「マンション」
３LDKで 子供たちが一つずつ部屋を取ったら あたいの部屋なんか 無いっ
うちで書き物なんかする時は みんながくつろぐリビングしかない…
娘は大学院から入学許可下りたばっかで
あと5年お世話になりますって宣言されたし…
あたいはボンにちょっと考えさしてねって言って
深夜さっさとネットで物件情報見はじめ
当初かかるコストを考えちゃ 深い溜息ついてた… （´ρ｀）
「今すぐ電話して」とボンからメールが来たのはその翌日の真昼間
それに気づいたのは夜の帰宅の電車の中
「どした？」と返信したが応答なし
うちに着いて とーちゃんから聞いてから何が起こったかわかった
ボンのラグビーチームにはグランドの敷地内に寮がある
誰でも入れるワケじゃなく ラグビーの推薦で入った生徒や
有望な選手が声掛けられて 初めて入寮を許される
その日卒業生の送別会の席で 新年度の入寮生が発表になったと
その中にボンが入ってたと！！ (ﾉﾟοﾟ)ﾉ w(*ﾟoﾟ*)w
なんでやねん！ (ﾉﾟοﾟ)ﾉ (」ﾟﾛﾟ)｣(｣ﾟﾛﾟ)｣(｣ﾟﾛﾟ)｣
ボン曰く 彼のポジション人材不足で何としてもボンに成長させる必要ができたと
チャンスはつかめよ ボン！
これが今週の我が家のできごと
ボンがどんだけ浮かれてるか
突然ボンが10日で別のところに住むことになった
ひょっとすると自分の息子と暮らす最後の10日間になる
母哀し
しかし この見事な偶然は何？ 神はやはりおられるか…
The day has come at last.
I don’t believe in God, though
I had been a seemingly-avid church goer over the past few years until I joined 7ACT.
The reason being that I was asked to work on Sundays along with my regular work hours.
However I didn’t quit searching for God! Ha!
It was only four days ago when I had a talk with my son.
He is a rugby player in a university league,
but unfortunately not a particularly successful one so far,
because his team is so well-known
and there are over one hundred members in the team literally from all over Japan.
His club on break at the moment for spring holidays, and for the graduation of 4th graders.
He keeps himself busy with a part time job in the morning,
but other than that he is slobbing about all day long, watching telly, playing video games…
As far as I know, he can do anything or play anything that he has tried so far,
but I’m not interested in that.
If possible, I want him to do the things that I cannot even imagine for him..
What kind of boy do I want him to be?
A boy who studies all the time? Of course not.
Who does all kinds of house work in his spare time?
No, that’s not realistic, not in terms of what I think or imagine of an ideal boy for me.
Somehow when I took an off from work I got grumpy by the end of the day
looking at my boy doing nothing special, (=｀(∞)´=)
being lazy, just enjoying his free time, which is perfectly alright for him….
But I didn’t say anything
because I knew what he was doing wasn’t something to be blamed for,
yet I still couldn’t help being crabby. (=｀(∞)´=)
My son always senses my feeling immediately.
Not like people who can't read you well. Not KY!
He’s a Godsend for ME! ┐(´-｀)┌
He kept asking me why I was indifferent.
I said it was too early to talk about it because I felt I was wrong in some manner or another.
But I ended up telling him what I was feeling, and also that I was wrong.
In the end we reached an agreement quite peacefully that it was the time for him to move out!
We’ve been under the same roof for twenty years this May
ever since he was born into this world!
My son was saying he would start living on his own after graduation of university.
So until then I wanted to be with him as much as possible,
since he IS my favorite boy…. ┐(´-｀)┌
But I must admit it’s time… (ﾉ_･｡)
Our apartment is a typical size for a small Japanese house;
three bed rooms, one living room, a kitchen and a bathroom.
The kids have their own rooms but unfortunately I don’t have that priviledge!
Whenever I had to work at home,
I would have to do it in our living room, where the family gets together to relax.
Our daughter, aged 22 has just been accepted by a grad school
and just asked us to put her up another five years!!
So, I asked to my son to give me some time to think about it.
I even started looking at the web sites for apartment adverts,
and with a deep sigh estimating how much it would cost to rent a room. （´ρ｀）
It was exactly midday the following day
when I got an email from my son asking to call him right away.
I only noticed the email at night in the train on the way home.
I emailed him back to inquire as to what had happened.
I got no response but soon found out from my husband at home.
My son’s team has a dormitory on the premise just for promising players.
No one can stay there unless he was asked by the director.
That particular afternoon there was a farewell party
for the graduating members in the rugby team,
and at that time new members for the dorm were announced,
and my son was one of them!!!!?! (ﾉﾟοﾟ)ﾉ w(*ﾟoﾟ*)w
How can it be!!?! (ﾉﾟοﾟ)ﾉ (」ﾟﾛﾟ)｣(｣ﾟﾛﾟ)｣(｣ﾟﾛﾟ)｣
This is the crazy circumstances our family had to deal with this week.
You probably have no trouble guessing how overjoyed my son truly is.
My son would have to leave for the dorm in ten days.
These ten days could possibly be my last days to live together with my own son.
A bit sad I am..but
Maybe the Lord is here… working miracles for us
Amen...